Well, Blogger was having issues while I was trying to update last night, so last night's post has been posted tonight.
The weekend, it starts tonight! Yes! And, considering the fact that we get Monday off, it's a four day weekend!
Speaking of the weekend, interestingly enough a family friend is participating in the Miss Oregon pageant this weekend. I've never known anyone who's been in one of these pageants, and I wonder what it's like to participate in something like that. I do like to dress up. I'd just need to get some abs. Speaking of which...
I'm thinking something is up with my body. My weight has been fluctuating like crazy, daily. So the whole thing started last Sunday, and I saw that my weight was quite a bit higher than usual. (I weigh myself weekly, mainly because my runner's log has a section for it and training screws up my appetite.) Because I let a thing like this get to me, I decided to watch where the scale was headed for the week. I've seen it go down and up in pounds. And I don't believe that I've been eating that much to cause such a stir. Something doesn't seem right, but I could be paranoid.
That's all from me tonight!
Have you ever seen/participated in a beauty pageant?
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Thursday, June 30, 2011
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Running Errands and Weighty Realizations
My phone has been saying an old post has been publishing all day... Ought to figure out what's going on there.
I can't believe it's already Wednesday. I'm getting all of my days mixed up. Not a good thing for the week to come.
Even though I haven't been in school this week, I've been keeping myself busy. Today was a day of running errands, cleaning, and determining what clothes are needed and for what seasons they are needed for. Because of this, I've been trying on clothes to see what fits. This has led me to realizing just how skinny I've gotten.
I have always been the one to mutter, "Damn skinny bitches" under my breath whenever I've seen some models flaunting about or something onscreen. The weird thing about that is I'm pretty thin myself. I don't think I'll ever let myself realize that, because for the longest time I was the biggest one out of the group.
I've never been overweight. I've been lucky enough to have pretty decent genes, a.k.a. the thin ones on my dad's side. (With the hips and thighs of my mom's side, but still.) I was always average. The only problem with being average is when you hang around with a bunch of dancers. Almost all of my really good friends were on the dance team, meaning they were all stick thin. Just because I wasn't overweight didn't mean I didn't feel fat in comparison.
Since then I've lost weight, and running helps me stay this size. If I quit running, my weight would probably explode. That makes things intimidating. For instance, what's my weight going to be in the future? Will people shamefully look at me and sadly say, "Oh, that Hannah. She used to be skinny, but now... How depressing."
Am I over thinking this? Probably. That's why for now I'll simply look in the mirror and exclaim, "Damn I look good!" Like they always say, it's better to live in the present than be overly stressed about things that might happen.
Other than those thoughts going through my mind, simply been thinking about school, cleaning, packing, money, summer... You know, a lot of things.
What do you tell yourself to keep from worrying about weight?
I can't believe it's already Wednesday. I'm getting all of my days mixed up. Not a good thing for the week to come.
Even though I haven't been in school this week, I've been keeping myself busy. Today was a day of running errands, cleaning, and determining what clothes are needed and for what seasons they are needed for. Because of this, I've been trying on clothes to see what fits. This has led me to realizing just how skinny I've gotten.
I have always been the one to mutter, "Damn skinny bitches" under my breath whenever I've seen some models flaunting about or something onscreen. The weird thing about that is I'm pretty thin myself. I don't think I'll ever let myself realize that, because for the longest time I was the biggest one out of the group.
I've never been overweight. I've been lucky enough to have pretty decent genes, a.k.a. the thin ones on my dad's side. (With the hips and thighs of my mom's side, but still.) I was always average. The only problem with being average is when you hang around with a bunch of dancers. Almost all of my really good friends were on the dance team, meaning they were all stick thin. Just because I wasn't overweight didn't mean I didn't feel fat in comparison.
Since then I've lost weight, and running helps me stay this size. If I quit running, my weight would probably explode. That makes things intimidating. For instance, what's my weight going to be in the future? Will people shamefully look at me and sadly say, "Oh, that Hannah. She used to be skinny, but now... How depressing."
Am I over thinking this? Probably. That's why for now I'll simply look in the mirror and exclaim, "Damn I look good!" Like they always say, it's better to live in the present than be overly stressed about things that might happen.
Other than those thoughts going through my mind, simply been thinking about school, cleaning, packing, money, summer... You know, a lot of things.
What do you tell yourself to keep from worrying about weight?
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Halloween and Studying
This week is definitely going to be a tough one. Three midterms in three days. I have Theatre tomorrow, English on Tuesday and History on Wednesday. Let's do it!
I actually studied for my English midterm earlier today with someone from my class. We were actually doing pretty well for two hours... Then we started talking about other things. Overall, I feel pretty good about it now!
Last night every single one of my plans fell through. Even the RHPS one because they were sold out when I got there. I tried so hard... and it made me feel awful. But you know what? Doing stuff three out of the four days isn't too bad!
Today's activity was going to my family's little Halloween event up north. It was a nice little time with fun little treats.
The last three days I have been eating nothing but junk, and too much of it. It needs to stop! I used to alway read stories that talked about how they would eat way too much, eat at ridiculous times, etc and think, "How can people really be that ignorant to what they're doing? I'd never do that." Yet... I have done that. I'm no better than the other people out there. Everything takes work.
That brings us to our weigh in. Tonight, I weigh 133 lbs. That's about a three pound weight gain in a month. That's just not good. Truthfully, I've weighed myself during the weeks because I was paranoid, and it's fluctuated. However, I feel blobbier. I can see where the weight is going, and I don't like it. I need to start thinking about what I eat and how much of it I eat. I also feel better when I'm running and have less weight on me. It's harder to breathe with extra fat. C'mon!
I hope everyone has a Happy Halloween!
How did you spend your holiday weekend? Any midterms coming up?
I actually studied for my English midterm earlier today with someone from my class. We were actually doing pretty well for two hours... Then we started talking about other things. Overall, I feel pretty good about it now!
Last night every single one of my plans fell through. Even the RHPS one because they were sold out when I got there. I tried so hard... and it made me feel awful. But you know what? Doing stuff three out of the four days isn't too bad!
Today's activity was going to my family's little Halloween event up north. It was a nice little time with fun little treats.
The last three days I have been eating nothing but junk, and too much of it. It needs to stop! I used to alway read stories that talked about how they would eat way too much, eat at ridiculous times, etc and think, "How can people really be that ignorant to what they're doing? I'd never do that." Yet... I have done that. I'm no better than the other people out there. Everything takes work.
That brings us to our weigh in. Tonight, I weigh 133 lbs. That's about a three pound weight gain in a month. That's just not good. Truthfully, I've weighed myself during the weeks because I was paranoid, and it's fluctuated. However, I feel blobbier. I can see where the weight is going, and I don't like it. I need to start thinking about what I eat and how much of it I eat. I also feel better when I'm running and have less weight on me. It's harder to breathe with extra fat. C'mon!
I hope everyone has a Happy Halloween!
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